Day in the life of a working mom

Today was busy and interesting. My assistant had a meltdown at work, feeling very unvalued for various reasons. I was able to encourage her, but sometimes it is hard to be a loyal employee and a loyal boss, too. But I did the best I could. She felt somewhat better as I told her what I appreciated about her.

Had a lot to do, and kept getting emails adding to my tasks from my boss, so turned off my email! It's amazing how little one can get done with many interruptions and how much one can do without them. Older daughter had a dentist appointment so had her call when she was done so I could pay. So I took a late lunch and took her with me to Target to get some groceries and check out the Christmas clearance aisle. Ooh, good! There was still a bunch of wrapping paper left at 90% off. I got a couple of rolls of paper that was rather generic looking--could use for birthday paper as well as it was colorful but not specifically Christmasy. Also got a few stickers for 9 cents (the ones that say to: and from: that you put on Christmas presents) so that was cool. I was able to get some milk and juice and some frozen dinners as daughter was able to take them home and put things in the refrigerator. We had a good time--she was in a good mood and things have been going well lately, as long as I don't mention about her blood sugar...

After working late I went by Walmart to pick up some more groceries and see if they had any Christmas things really cheap. Theirs were 75% off, and had quite a bit left, but not much of anything I needed. I did pick up several packages of holiday envelopes to send out next year and some Christmas cards. Hopefully I just didn't buy a bunch of stuff that I'll never use. I didn't spend more than 10.00 for everything at both Target & Walmart, so I'm not out much anyway! Ha ha. I bought a bunch of ground beef so I can make a huge pot of spaghetti sauce tomorrow night and use some of it for lasagne and some for homemade pizza. We've eaten a lot of chicken and turkey lately, so that sounded very good to the kids.

After dinner I helped youngest son with his algebra. Then quizzed younger daughter on her chemistry equations. Fun stuff. I brought a bunch of work home to do, but ran out of time and energy. I am feeling kind of discouraged as a few minutes before I started writing this my older daughter made a poor choice. It's hard as a mother. I feel responsible for her wrong decisions as if it was my fault. But it is her choice, not mine. I don't always know how much of her bad decisions are the result of her decision to not take care of her blood sugar. I know she has a hard time thinking clearly when her blood sugar either very high or very low. It's a snowball effect. She makes the choice to not manage her diabetes well, which leads to making poor choices, which leads to not managing her diabetes even more, etc. etc. I am praying that she will make a decision to want help and change. But I can't MAKE her do it. Only SHE can take that step. And I need to be patient, yet firm until that time. I know God has a plan for her life...but how much of that plan is she turning her back on by not dealing with this? I dunno. But it makes me sad. Yet I choose to trust in midst of my sadness.